Is your true intention really to "clean"?

I want a free Government. A clean Government. But like Ghandi said, Be the change you want to see in the world. I do not understand how a group of power mongers Vs another group of power hoarders is going to change anything. The only thing i can foresee in the near future and the far future if we do have any is more and more arguments amounting to who is going to be the next corrupt body. Everyone is corrupt to a certain degree.

I am willing to bet all that I am worth that the same people who are organising the Bersih rally are not as innocent as those that they oppose. I for one do not believe that they have never mouthed the words, "boleh tolong ka?" Nepotism and corruption is a way of life that can never be changed. No Government can claim to be free of corruption. If the instigators of the rallies really wanted to make a change and they really believe that BN is the source of all these problems, then they would change the institution from the inside and not create road closures and instability that would affect our livelihoods. What is the point of gaining a so called clean Government when we end up poor with no outside countries willing to trade with us. What then is the point. They say they fight for the future but what is the future if it is at best bleak and sad?

malacca again

lets start off this post with my sudden craving to eat crabs. it was a weird thing. something that i woke up with and for many weeks(not being dramatic here) i craved the flesh of these calcium packaged sweetness. taking to the streets many times but somehow always failing to get a hold of these succulent crustaceans. finally on thursday, i spotted them at the weekly nightmarket. AWESOME!!
this is my baby,we were having a day trip down to Malacca. just to rest and relax. Things have been very hectic lately and we both needed a day where we could just take our time. We did some shopping on Jonker, went to the beach for some fresh air and finally had dinner with my mother. This was something i really needed to get me back into my daily routine

she has no idea how much i love her

hahahahahah

if i die young - the band perry

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
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They're worth so much more after I’m a gonner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh


The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

Control

I love control.
I like being able to determine the path to take
when I want the car to turn left, it does just as I wish.
I really do enjoy that feeling.

but alas, not everything can be controlled,
the weather for instance.
too many different variables to make it into something we can control
there is the humidity, the static, the temperature, the wind
in fact, even the phases of the moon is taken into account
even still, these are but a small portion of the variables that control the weather

the best we come up with is the ability to predict the weather.
this puts some control back into our hand,
but that's what they want you to think.

predicting the weather allows you to plan around the weather
you don't plan for it to happen,
and lets be honest, we are not very good at predicting the weather either.

what I'm trying to say is,
I love being able to control something.
but i don't want to control everything.
somehow that ability would just take all the fun and spontaneity out of life.

that's why I never believed in preparing the umbrella before the rain,
I do have a thing against standing under the umbrella
but
that's not the issue here.
if its just a soft drizzle then i find the umbrella stupid.
if its pouring cats and dogs, the umbrella is not going to help much.

similarly in life,
if the problem is small, just persevere through it.
if the problem is huge,
well lets get wet.
why not?
didn't we all use to love playing under the rain last time.
we just grow stronger every time after the rain is done.

so love
be happy
splurge
me a control freak,
i don't believe in planning for the future.
i just believe in knowing what i want to do in the future.
that's my direction.

i do not want to plan my path there
that would be quite confusing and lets face it
i can't predict the future

sometimes the things you do make me feel betrayed.

gosh.............. it's been so long since i've updated this....
hahahahaha
I'm sorry to all the people who still read this


well, lets see whats happened since i last posted something up here
hmmmm...............


i started year two, and for the first time in my life i have no idea what i am doing in class
the prom planning seems to be going along well,
a few conflicts here and there(maybe not here and there just me and me)
but i expected this, so i wont take anything to heart,
it's just many bright minds with lots of clashing ideals and ideas i suppose
just got to remember that we are friends first

my grandmother passed away recently,
so i was really busy with that.
didnt even log on to the internet in almost 7 days,
the longest by far since i've gotten the internet
i'm an addict what can i say?
anyways, i guess that was to pay respects to dear old granny i suppose


oh i know you will kill me for this,
but i love you and you know who you are....... :P

My results are out and i have to thank God i did not fail
in fact i think i did quite well
considering i spend less than 24 hours studying for each of the subject
call it the lazy luck, but i always find that i do better when i dont work particulary hard
oh well,.....
got to experiment with year two and work harder in order to get the first class i need
69 average just hurts....
hahahahha