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Is your true intention really to "clean"?

2011-07-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

I want a free Government. A clean Government. But like Ghandi said, Be the change you want to see in the world. I do not understand how a group of power mongers Vs another group of power hoarders is going to change anything. The only thing i can foresee in the near future and the far future if we do have any is more and more arguments amounting to who is going to be the next corrupt body. Everyone is corrupt to a certain degree.

I am willing to bet all that I am worth that the same people who are organising the Bersih rally are not as innocent as those that they oppose. I for one do not believe that they have never mouthed the words, "boleh tolong ka?" Nepotism and corruption is a way of life that can never be changed. No Government can claim to be free of corruption. If the instigators of the rallies really wanted to make a change and they really believe that BN is the source of all these problems, then they would change the institution from the inside and not create road closures and instability that would affect our livelihoods. What is the point of gaining a so called clean Government when we end up poor with no outside countries willing to trade with us. What then is the point. They say they fight for the future but what is the future if it is at best bleak and sad?

malacca again

2010-12-12T00:56:00.002+08:00

lets start off this post with my sudden craving to eat crabs. it was a weird thing. something that i woke up with and for many weeks(not being dramatic here) i craved the flesh of these calcium packaged sweetness. taking to the streets many times but somehow always failing to get a hold of these succulent crustaceans. finally on thursday, i spotted them at the weekly nightmarket. AWESOME!!
this is my baby,we were having a day trip down to Malacca. just to rest and relax. Things have been very hectic lately and we both needed a day where we could just take our time. We did some shopping on Jonker, went to the beach for some fresh air and finally had dinner with my mother. This was something i really needed to get me back into my daily routine

she has no idea how much i love her

hahahahahah

if i die young - the band perry

2010-11-16T16:43:00.001+08:00

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh oh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I’ll shine down on my mother
She'll know I’m safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh and
Life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no
ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

And I’ll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom
I’m as green as the ring on my little cold finger
I’ve never known the lovin' of a man
But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand
There’s a boy here in town says he’ll love me forever
Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls
What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no I’ll sell them for a dollar
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
They're worth so much more after I’m a gonner
And maybe then you’ll hear the words I been singin’
Funny when you're dead how people start listenin’

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song
oh oh

The ballad of a dove
Go with peace and love
Gather up your tears, keep ‘em in your pocket
Save them for a time when your really gonna need 'em oh

The sharp knife of a short life, well
I’ve had just enough time

So put on your best boys and I’ll wear my pearls

Control

2010-10-18T19:08:00.002+08:00

I love control.
I like being able to determine the path to take
when I want the car to turn left, it does just as I wish.
I really do enjoy that feeling.

but alas, not everything can be controlled,
the weather for instance.
too many different variables to make it into something we can control
there is the humidity, the static, the temperature, the wind
in fact, even the phases of the moon is taken into account
even still, these are but a small portion of the variables that control the weather

the best we come up with is the ability to predict the weather.
this puts some control back into our hand,
but that's what they want you to think.

predicting the weather allows you to plan around the weather
you don't plan for it to happen,
and lets be honest, we are not very good at predicting the weather either.

what I'm trying to say is,
I love being able to control something.
but i don't want to control everything.
somehow that ability would just take all the fun and spontaneity out of life.

that's why I never believed in preparing the umbrella before the rain,
I do have a thing against standing under the umbrella
but
that's not the issue here.
if its just a soft drizzle then i find the umbrella stupid.
if its pouring cats and dogs, the umbrella is not going to help much.

similarly in life,
if the problem is small, just persevere through it.
if the problem is huge,
well lets get wet.
why not?
didn't we all use to love playing under the rain last time.
we just grow stronger every time after the rain is done.

so love
be happy
splurge
me a control freak,
i don't believe in planning for the future.
i just believe in knowing what i want to do in the future.
that's my direction.

i do not want to plan my path there
that would be quite confusing and lets face it
i can't predict the future

2010-10-15T13:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes the things you do make me feel betrayed.

2010-10-10T23:13:00.002+08:00

gosh.............. it's been so long since i've updated this....
hahahahaha
I'm sorry to all the people who still read this

well, lets see whats happened since i last posted something up here
hmmmm...............

i started year two, and for the first time in my life i have no idea what i am doing in class
the prom planning seems to be going along well,
a few conflicts here and there(maybe not here and there just me and me)
but i expected this, so i wont take anything to heart,
it's just many bright minds with lots of clashing ideals and ideas i suppose
just got to remember that we are friends first

my grandmother passed away recently,
so i was really busy with that.
didnt even log on to the internet in almost 7 days,
the longest by far since i've gotten the internet
i'm an addict what can i say?
anyways, i guess that was to pay respects to dear old granny i suppose

oh i know you will kill me for this,
but i love you and you know who you are....... :P

2010-09-19T13:09:00.001+08:00

My results are out and i have to thank God i did not fail
in fact i think i did quite well
considering i spend less than 24 hours studying for each of the subject
call it the lazy luck, but i always find that i do better when i dont work particulary hard
oh well,.....
got to experiment with year two and work harder in order to get the first class i need
69 average just hurts....
hahahahha

2010-08-25T21:07:00.003+08:00

you got to understand that every person thinks differently.
if you want something done your way, then do it yourself.

2010-08-14T23:09:00.001+08:00

and it is over.
just like that
it is over

2010-08-10T22:38:00.001+08:00

And then there was ONE
wish me luck
i think i need it alot
:P

2010-08-07T11:43:00.003+08:00

2 down and 2 more to go!!
EFFF!!! how could i not finish those essays!!!

2010-08-07T11:43:00.001+08:00

2 down and 2 more to go!!
EFFF!!! how could i not finish those essays!!!

2010-08-03T19:51:00.000+08:00

oh gosh.... 1 down and three more to go... I can do this
=)

2010-07-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

I'm in love.....
you know who you are
hahahahaha
can't type your name here
hahahahaha

I'm so glad today

2010-07-06T00:39:00.002+08:00

I think I am quite content with what happened today
firstly, i finally got my first drop pod!!

and then i finally got my car serviced...
hahahahahha
changed so many parts, but it was all good
even sitting for 2 hours with the mechanic was fun

then i got my racket restrung,
then i cooked a meal

hahahaha
and i'm still happy and full now

oh yeah i also had baskin robbins with daniel just now

going to do it again tomorrow
hahahahahaha
but not with him
:P

2010-06-30T01:08:00.002+08:00

"Love anything and your heart will be wrung and
possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact
you must give it to no one, not even an animal.
Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries;
avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe
in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket,
safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change.
It will not be broken; it will become

unbreakable,

impenetrable,

irredeemable.

To love is to be vulnerable."

C.S. Lewis

story of my life people

2010-06-29T23:49:00.001+08:00

2010-06-28T01:57:00.001+08:00

2010-06-27T16:32:00.003+08:00

Today I walked up a mountain....
almost reached the top when I realised that
I do not want to stand at the top Alone

So I turned around and started walking back.

hahahahahahaha
it was a 3km walk there and another 3km back i think.

hahahahaha
not sure cause the road signs were misleading

plus i found this weird tadpole looking thing that was gold and black in colour.... I think it was a toad's tadpole but I'm not sure

2010-06-27T00:21:00.000+08:00

bottle rockets = happiness

2010-06-23T18:00:00.002+08:00

i want to go launch bottle rockets again!!!
somehow
no matter how many times i launch it
it makes me happy
and what i need right now
is to feel happy again
even if it is a fleeting moment
it is better than nothing

but alas....
the second part of my rocket has some problems
probably cause i haven't used it in a while
the bottom end is starting to leak air

sigh.....
looks like ill be spending some
DIY
time again
:)
hahahahahahahaha
i just realised
i found something else that excites me
hahahaha
DIY!!!
muahahahahahaha
hahahahahahahah
ahahahahahahah

am i easy to please or what
:P

dreams

2010-06-19T15:10:00.004+08:00

"True, I talk of dreams,
Which are the children of an idle brain,
Begot of nothing but vain fantasy."

Fantasies. What are they? Are they really just the result of an idle brain? A dream. A dream so sweet and comforting but alas it is but a figment of your imagination. Are we supposed to dream big?

These are all the thoughts of a truly idle mind. One that lacks imagination to go beyond the box.
But let me ask you this. if you assume that thinking outside the box requires thinking outside the ordinary. And everyone is encouraged to do this. Yes?

Lets assume that everybody would think outside the box, then wouldn't thinking outside the box become something ordinary and hence be placed back inside the box? Assuming the theory persists, then wouldn't thinking inside the box become thinking outside the box?

If this is true, then people are not meant to think outside the box, or it will end up as an unending paradox of inside, outside, inside and outside.

Perhaps that is why some people are paid to dream. Some people are paid to carry out these dreams.

You know, I think the most realistic dreamers out there are the designers. Be it buildings or cars, these people are paid to dream big and the best thing about it is that people carry out these dreams of theirs for them. At the end of the day, they get to tell their friends, or family, or children "that is my dream and my ambition and here it is in a tangible form"

It is actually a career path I've thought about for awhile. Even if i were to design the lowly Protons, I would still be able to say "hey, look! everyone is using my designs!" what an honour that would be.

But alas it is merely a dream for now. Maybe in the far future people would be driving around in one of my designs, but for now it is merely the child of an idle brain.

However, I believe all is not lost. If I do one day become a Lawyer, or a teacher, or a politician, would I not still be able to carry out my dreams? Instead of designing tangible objects, I can take part in designing the future for the next generation. Would that not be a grander dream?

Sigh.....................

At the end of the day, these are all mere dreams.
I can say it over and over again as many times as I want, but it won't come true unless I work for it. The bigger the dream, the more work it entails.....

Oh well....... it is a curse and a blessing i believe to have really really really really really big dreams

Okay, New story!

2010-06-05T13:09:00.003+08:00

This is a story of a love gone confused. That’s right, not a love gone wrong but a love gone confused. We shall start the story with the main character. His name is Albert. Then we also have his good friend Bernard. Then there is also a girl. Her name is Carmen. And this would be the story of a very confusing love triangle in my opinion.

So you see Bernard has liked Carmen for a long time. He takes her out on shopping trips and dinners. What a nice guy. Carmen also likes Bernard, but she draws the line at being only a friend and nothing more. In fact, when there was an important question asked, she said no.

How heart breaking. Don’t you think?

Anyways, that didn’t stop Bernard from staying interested in her; although I think it pains him to see her. After all, I read somewhere that the most painful heartache is being so close to someone, but never able to tell that someone how you feel. I somewhat feel a little sad for Bernard, not because he got rejected or anything like that, but because he tries so hard to hide everything. Perhaps at the bottom of his heart, he is still hoping that she will one day say yes.
Then came Albert. Albert and Bernard have been friends since childhood. Although they were never close enough to call themselves best friends, well there was always something connecting the two of them together. So Albert came to know Carmen a little later compared to Bernard.

In fact in the beginning, Albert didn’t really feel a sense of chemistry with this Carmen girl. How silly of him. After a while, they began speaking to each other, and somehow or rather Albert fell for this girl. A girl he initially termed as funny.
However, things get complicated because as their relationships progressed, Albert found out Bernard’s intentions for Carmen. Placed in a weird situation, Albert is lost and does not know what to do. Albert is afraid that asking Carmen for the truth would make things very awkward for all three of them, so in the end, I suppose this has ended up as a very confused love relationship
=D

P.s anyone got any ideas how to solve this little pickle that the two boys are in? hehehehehehe

but soon after, life started happening, people started growing up. These three friends sometimes grew closer, and sometimes they grew apart. However one thing perhaps never changed between these three friends. People come, people leave, but somehow this 'what if' moment will probably not be forgotten in many years to come, till finally Carmen passes, Bernard passes, and Albert passes when all these people are old and look like prunes
hahahahahahaha

is this a dream? (part 2)

2010-06-02T22:02:00.002+08:00

Imagine being in a completely alien environment.
You have no idea how you got there.
The rooms look weird.
You feel a little weird.
like there is something in your stomach.
But really there is nothing there.
You are hungry, yet appetite has left.
Now imagine a dark and cold night
Trapped, in your mind, Trapped in the house

And now a hand grabs your shoulder.
At this point in time,
what are you meant to feel?
Fear?
Would fear help in this circumstance?
You hear the thunder booming in the distance.
Somehow it feels like it is moving closer and closer towards you.
Then you remember the hand.
Do you turn?
Do you run?
If you ran, where would you run to?
Turn around and fight? With what? Your malnutrition-ed body?
Funny how at times like these, time is a subjective matter.
All these thoughts passing through your mind in less than a split second,
then you decide.
turn around and fight.

You feel the hand jerk harder!
You try to throw a punch.
hoping to get that person or thing.
you miss, hitting only air.
The hand releases you and you stagger back. Unable to see clearly due to the flashing lights, you decide that it might have been a better idea to have ran.
Is it too late?
you Turn on your heels and you feel the cold hand.
You just realised it was cold
was it cold before?
its grip now harder. Tighter.
A voice tells you to stop.
its a hard voice. Unfeeling perhaps.
What is your instincts telling you?

is this a dream?

2010-05-29T00:30:00.003+08:00

First imagine you are in a dark room.
You put your hand in front of your face.
You cannot see it. It's too dark
It is raining outside. The heavy and noisy kind.
You can barely hear yourself think.
Its raining, raining, raining

Now imagine the air around you
Its wet and humid and it sticks to your skin
Cold. That's your first thought.
Now, you see a slit of light.
looks like its coming from the other room.
You see it flickering. Do you step out?

off. on. off. off. on....
It goes on.
It calls to you. Slowly but surely, you get up.
You feel around and walk towards the light.
Nausea creeps up as the door doesn't seem to come nearer
After what feels like forever, you reach the door
The door knob feels cold.

Very cold. It stings your skin.
Why is it you can hear your heart beat in your ears?
You turn the knob. Half hoping it doesn't give way.
But lo and behold, it opens into a long hallway.
You know the kind you see in hospitals that seem to go forever.
The lights are still flickering.
Your eyes hurt. Trying to get used to the lights.

on. off. on. off. on.
Where do you think you are?
The walls look yellow from years of disuse
You don't remember anything.
Not your name.
Not who you are.
Just a nameless stranger even to yourself.

You search your pockets.
sweat is forming on your body.
the hallway seems unnaturally warm and humid.
your pockets seem to contain a key and a picture of two people hugging.
Who is this?
The back of the photo a note saying good luck!
Who are these people?

You decide to continue walking down the alley.
You pass one room
two room
three room
four room
all the rooms are numbered......
the one you just walked out of

that was marked 'Chamber Zero'
why was it the only one called chamber?
the others had room crudely hammered into the metal doors
As you continue walking, you realise some of them have blood stains.
Where are you?
Are there people inside these rooms as well?
You ask yourself, if they are still 'human'

You reach a mirror.
You notice that one of the person in the earlier picture is you
But somehow your reflection seems wrong
like its distorted in some way.
Who is this other person?
Why are you in this place?
The rain is still hammering the roof.

If anything, the sound got stronger the moment you left the room.
You look around. Cold. Hungry. It feels like a new sensation.
You take one last look in the mirror and leave.
As you turned to walk, A hand grabs your shoulder.
You turn.

i just found this website and i love it..... my new blog picture is from the site :)

2010-05-29T00:15:00.001+08:00

http://creaturebox.com/gallery/

Can You Take Me to the Moon?

2010-05-23T23:56:00.001+08:00

Once upon a time there was a boy. He was a lonely boy, never speaking unless spoken too. In fact if he were in a room you would not notice him. You would see the jock pushing him around, and you would notice the boy with the pocket calculator, but you would never quite notice him.

He wasn’t fat or tall, good looking or ugly. In fact he was so ordinary you would not notice him at all. He had no friends that he could count. Being perfectly ordinary, why would people befriend him?

Once upon a time there was a girl. She was a lonely girl. Perhaps it’s because she was a little sickly so she rarely came to school. When she did come to school, she would be forced to sit in the lonely corner of the class because no one would go near her.

One night, when the boy was working on fixing his bike in his little shed, he noticed the little girl who was sitting alone by the sea. You see, she hasn’t been sickly in years but because people didn’t like talking to her she did not have the motivation to go to school. The boy was no longer the invisible little boy. Now he was one of the brightest students in school.

“What are you doing out here?” the boy asked the girl. “It’s windy out tonight. You might catch a cold.” “Its okay” said the girl, “I was just staring at the moon. It looks so beautiful tonight. Don’t you think so?” the boy looked up at the moon. “I don’t look up much,” he said. “Can you bring me to the moon?” the girl asked, “I don’t really like it down here.” She looked him in the eyes as she said this.

He noticed in the pale moonlight that she had eyes that made you feel like you were swimming in them. She looked like an angel being surrounded by the pale moonlight. She seemed so fragile yet her eyes told him that she was a strong person. He realized that he has fallen for the lonely girl. She was him and he was her.

So he sat down next to her and held her hand. He allowed her to rest her head on his shoulders and he brought her on a journey. He told her how he would build her a rocket ship. He would paint it blue in colour because he thinks it looks cool. He told her how he would let her decorate the inside.

With curtains and tables and chairs, that would be her responsibility. He told her that when the rocket was ready, they would point the rocket ship towards the moon and they would blast off into the stars. He told her of the little space pixies that would have tea with them. The pixies would come in every colour of the rainbow, and they would eat strawberry shortcakes. He told her of how one of the pixies (whose name is in a language unknown to man) fell into the teacup as he was trying to help himself to a large serving of cake.

He definitely did not leave out the part where they would pass the space faring jellyfish who slowly float off from one system to another. Gracefully they float as their bodies slowly change colours. From the richest maroons to the darkest blacks, they do this slowly as if time did not affect them.

He told her that when they finally arrive on the moon, they would have to dress their best because there would be a party to celebrate their arrival. The little rabbits and the man on the moon would host the party for them. The rabbit’s fur would be of the purest whites and the man on the moon would have skin the colour of cheese. He told her how the man on the moon would greet them with a warm hug, and treats them to moon cheese and banana cakes. Then the boy told her, how they would slowly walk around the moon, hand in hand and visit the little craters and big craters. The man on the moon would describe each crater with the funniest expressions and the two of them would laugh till their tummies hurt.

He told her that after the visiting they would have to go back home to earth because people back home would be missing them. She sighed and said, “Why do we have to go home?” “Because there are people back home waiting for us,”

The boy soon grew into a man and the girl into a lady; they remained in that little house by the shed by the beach. 70 years down the road, the lady still has not gone to the moon, but she knew, that the boy who grew into a man, who later died of old age in his favourite reading chair was up there waiting for her on the moon with the man in the moon. So she would also one day drift away to her husband on the moon when the time is right, and they would live happily ever after again, not on earth but on their most favourite place. The moon.

If Today Was Your Last Day- Nickleback

2010-05-23T22:21:00.001+08:00

If Today Was Your Last Day lyrics
Songwriters: Kroeger, Chad;
My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had, if today was your last day?
What if, what if, if today was your last day?

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the price is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you're never living twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are

So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothing stand in your way
'Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day and tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past?
Donate every dime you had?

And would you call those friends you never see?
Reminisce old memories?
Would you forgive your enemies?
And would you find that one you're dreaming of
Swear up and down to God above
That you'd finally fall in love if today was your last day?

2010-05-20T02:21:00.002+08:00

i cut myself but there's no blood
i run but i do not feel my heart race
i read but i do not see
see what i used to see

i try to feel
i try to make adrenalin pump
but in the
mundane duties
of life

nothing works anymore

i see death in the news
red and yellow and blue
are they all not just simple colours
how do we use it to segregate ourselves?

i cut myself but i do not feel
my emotions are dead
my neurons no longer fire
i am but a case without a soul

i hate the repetition of life
i cut myself but things don't change
i dream
but what is a dream but the result of an idle mind

and
yet

i
dream

dream

dream

but see nothing
is there no future left

i cut myself but i do not bleed
that is because
i am no longer alive
hence i do not possess
the vitality
and energy
of
red
blood
in
my
veins

an experimentO.o

2010-05-19T00:30:00.003+08:00

lately we have begun project gg
it is a social science experiment to measure the breaking point to which
we can prove a persons sexuality.

so far the project is going well
with the subject leaning towards the heterosexual side.
of course more observations
have to be made
and more data interpreted.

=)

2010-05-13T00:43:00.005+08:00

I have recently found myself a new project to do
due to complaints made by my dear friend JAKE
i have decided to begin building buildings(sounds kinda weird like that)
to accommodate our gaming sessions to be more fair.
To be honest, it hasn't been very fair considering i can always exploit him
and it is much harder for him to return that favour.
so i've placed below my checklist on buildings to build before the month of july ends.... C=

oh BTW Kudos to Junior for joining our little community.......

progress is always good

2010-05-09T01:15:00.002+08:00

progress is always good i tell you. Even if its the wrong progress... ahahahahaha
at this point in time i suppose i am supposed to be cleaning up my assignment, but i guess i got tempted

here's the thing, my friends bought me this awesome gift and because ive been putting off doing it, well......

here it is C=

this above is the original.
as you know originality is a mere excuse for being boring,
so being the avid modder i am i decided to give this old tank
a sported up feel
hence meet the redeemer version S

the spoiler in the back is an interesting touch to differentiate my tank from others,.....
all thats left is the long and arduous painting process
but that shouldn't take too long i hope
C=

this is by the way the new entries into my collections.... a group of genestealers.... hahahaha lots of painting to do.... hahaha

thanks guys

C=

blogging from class

2010-05-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

DAMN CLASS IS REALLY BORING!!!!!!!!!

2010-05-02T09:56:00.002+08:00

To those who are married, .. Not married .. and soon to be married, I hope you will be touched with this story... MARRIAGE When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth.

But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce.. I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage. This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning.. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions.. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her.

For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute.

I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead.. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce.

My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife.

The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage! If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

by: Mayie Natividad Garcia

Birthday

2010-04-27T18:13:00.005+08:00

WEEEEEEE!!!!
I'm Finally 20
its a good thing i believe.
Everything is still
going according to plan
hahahahaha

Up to now,
i think this is the best birthday I've ever had
from the countless wishes
till my friends shocking me at 7 in the morning.

let me tell you about how my friends wished me happy birthday this year
I do not know how long they planned it
but i can tell you its the best surprise i've had in a long time

I heard my dad leave the house at somewhere after 630
and soon i heard him come back
assuming he forgot something
i didn't expect him to call me
he knocked my door
and went
"MARCUS!"
in that you are in trouble tone.
i was like
"Shoot!! what did i do this time?"
hahahaha
and Lo and behold
outside
was my good friends who shouted
MARCUS!!!
almost gave me a heart attack
hahahaha
Did i tell you guys
I LOVE YOU
cause somehow i think i haven't said it enough
Kim
Kean Hoe
Daniel
Thomas
Jo Ann
THANKS FOR THE SURPRISE.

Then came the lunch in the afternoon
hahahaha
we literally booked the whole restaurant
like
really
hahahahahaha

it was good food
and good fun

tried the 350g
burger.
it was good
hahahahahahaha

then I came home and watched the video
I'll let you guys in on a little secret.
i had tears
like honestly

I honestly love you guys
all of you

and to all those who wished me Happy Birthday
i thank you from the bottom of my heart

this includes
Kim for being such a good friend
Kean Hoe for always being there when i need to vent
Jake for allowing me to be a nerd once in a while
Thomas for just being special
May Jean for making Thomas happy
Rachel and Regina for calling all the way from the states
Jo Ann for being my first friend in college
See Wei for being the special one with the buttons
Michele for all her funny stares
Junior for being funny
Lai Yee for making Kean Hoe even better at telling cold jokes
Glenyss for always asking how I am
Geraldine for always reminding me to smile
Kexin for being Kexin
Ernest for being stuck with me because thats what fate dictates for the two of us
quite gay i know
hahahah
Mei Quin for being my role model
then there are also all my other friends
who have came together and made my world
the colourful rainbow it is

i apologise for being dark once in a while
and i promise from now onwards to always look on the brighter side of things

and yes

ill go find myself a girlfriend soon

and make sure she doesn't run away with my heart
hahahahha

C=

Just for laughs... hahaha

2010-04-27T01:22:00.003+08:00

WANTED
reward will be provided!
crime= too charming

politics

2010-04-24T22:28:00.002+08:00

I really hate politics.
I hate politicians more
why is it that they have to squabble like little school children
why is it that they make empty promises?
Pro-government?
Opposition?
what the hell is the point
the human race is soon to be engulfed by its own greed.
makes no difference who sits on top
because at the end of the day,
as malaysians we are all doomed
because we live in a country filled with half baked assholes
who can't live without taking bribes.
DAmn!
why am i stuck in this forsaken country?

you want CHANGE?
its not going to come unless you throw out every single member of parliament
and start elections
and instead of electing parties
vote for the person who is going to represent you
the democratic process in this country is so bad to the point that we vote for the party and not the individual.
postmen, rempits, bummers,
im not looking down on these people
im sure that they are worth something in society
however little that may be
but honestly
if they cant make it pass highschool
if they can't hold a job
what makes you think they can represent you in parliament?
you know why our government sucks
?
cause we vote for them
you know why the parliament looks like a middle school recess session
cause we put them there.
as citizens we have the choice to pick
after picking
why the hell do you sit in coffee shops making it seem like you can do a better job?
if you can then get off your bloody seat and work for it

BLOODY HELL!!!!!!

2010-04-24T01:02:00.002+08:00

The rhythm of the city,
an emotionless machine,
manufacturing reality,
shiny but unclean.

Built on sand and fantasy,
mirror of mirage,
reflected on the silver screen and the chrome in the garage.

Vision blinded by concrete,
callused hearts enclosed,
deafened by the drum beat,
tongues too seared to taste.

Masked by the drone of engines and chatter of the street,
still the small voice is buried and the footpath isn't seen.

Images and idols technologically devised,
words of cotton candy dissolve before your eyes,
intellect and science worshiped by decree,
giving credit to illusion so the chained believe they are free.

Fundamental skeletons in self appointed roles,
clothed in robes of office but carnivorous of souls,
speaking words that come from knowledge but do not come from light,
letters leading spirit
adding darkness to the night

anonymous

i found this poem today in class.
it really made my day

2010-04-23T21:16:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i feel like a
public library.
lots of people coming in and out
some spend a long time
some a relatively short time
some are people who always stick around
some are people who come once and never return
the thing that makes me the saddest however
are the people who come
make an impression
borrow a book
and then never return again
leaving me to never know why
or what i did
to make them never return again

2010-04-21T23:57:00.001+08:00

I'm really sorry

you reminded me today, why i used you as a benchmark last time XD

2010-04-16T01:10:00.001+08:00

2010-04-14T16:23:00.001+08:00

There is a lady sweet and kind,
Was never face so pleased my mind;
I did but see her passing by,
And yet I love her till I die.

Her gesture, motion and her smiles,
Her wit, her voice, my heart beguiles;
Beguiles my heart, I know not why,
And yet I love her till I die.

Had I her fast betwixt mine arms,
Judge you that think such sports were harms,
Were't any harm? No, no, fie, fie!
For I will love her till I die.

Should I remain confinèd there
So long as Phoebus in his sphere,
I to request, she to deny,
Yet would I love her till I die.

Her free behavior, winning looks,
Will make a lawyer burn his books.
I touched her not alas not I,
And yet I'll love her till I die.

Cupid is winged and doth range
Her country so my love doth change;
But change she earth or change she sky,
Yet will I love her till I die.

2010-04-13T13:16:00.001+08:00

lunch C=

2010-04-07T22:28:00.003+08:00

i love the song rule the world by take that

What can I say, its been a good week for me. So far at least

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well i guess there isn't really much to say i guess........
the door is closing and perhaps no one is going to open it for a while.
things are coming to an end and a new beginning is coming.
so soon it seems i will be leaving this land of sorrows
will i be missing it? perhaps not hahahahaha

SO Close to death's door

2010-04-03T20:55:00.002+08:00

Gosh, It's been a while since i've posted something relatively worth reading on my blog.
Well its been a busy few months i guess. Lots of things have happened. Been way Up and been way dOWN, but everything has mellowed out i guess......

I finally realise having 6 classes a week really takes its toll on me
its not that its the hours, its the concentration you have to put into each class that really tires you out

It isn't really a physical fatigue i guess....... after all classes are only a maximum of 3 1/2 hours a day. Its more of the reading and writing and thinking that goes into this few hours that really drains the mind i suppose. plus there have been other things that have been nagging at my mind.

I think in a way I have recently detached myself from reality, choosing only to believe what i believe is true and leaving no quarter for anything else. perhaps I'm just tired of having to give and take with everyone.......

to those i have made angry because of my foul attitude lately I am terribly sorry.....

i realise i'm really strung out lately with so many things happening
i don't know if I'm supposed to be sad having two close family members with their one foot in their graves. In a way i suppose i don't know what it feels like to lose someone close to me. or perhaps i have gotten used to the idea that everybody leaves sooner or later......
Perhaps it just hasn't sunk in yet i suppose that my grandmother who partially raised me is about to bite the dust, and my grand aunt who has always been a role model is following close behind.

I tell myself that its going to be fine. After all, if they do die now it would be of natural causes, and they have both lived full lives seeing all their children grow up and come into their own. In fact in a way i quite envy them......

their tough journey on this pitiful earth is finally almost over. No more need to worry about earthly stuff.... but will things be the same without them?

perhaps i don't have a heart at all. thats why i don't even feel anything. no sadness, no happiness(is that even possible), NOTHING.

oh well, life moves on right?

or does it?

my new love C=

2010-03-26T22:54:00.001+08:00

2010-03-26T01:16:00.001+08:00

play the idiot just a little longer before the clown gets wind that you are trying to take him down

since everyone's doing it i'll jump on the band wagon aswell

2010-03-19T01:32:00.002+08:00

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
#MY TOTAL:4

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
#MY TOTAL: 9

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
5. received a ticket.
6. been to rehab
7. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar
#MY TOTAL: 8

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything
6. wore black nail polish
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
#MY TOTAL: 3

1. dressed gothic
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
4. dressed grunge.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
#MY TOTAL: 4

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
#MY TOTAL: 6

1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
#MY TOTAL: 8

1. owned/rented an apartment/house.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf
4. got in trouble with the police.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
#MY TOTAL: 8

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
#MY TOTAL: 8

Grand Total: 58 my goodness!! im horrible

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70..Write [i should be dead]

More than Anyone- Gavin DeGraw

2010-03-18T22:06:00.001+08:00

You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna to love you more than anyone

Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together, baby
Free together, baby

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

I'm gonna love you more than anyone

Half of my heart- John Mayer feat Taylor Swift

2010-03-14T00:59:00.001+08:00

I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
Free to roam made a home out of everywhere I've been
Then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
Trying my best to understand, all that your love can bring

Oh half of my heart has a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart has a right mind to tell you that
I can't keep loving you(can't keep loving you)
Oh with half of my heart

I was made to believe I'd never love somebody else
Made a plan stay the man who could only love himself
Lonely was the song I sang, til the day you came
Showing me another way, and all that my love can bring

Oh half of my hearts got a grip on the situation
Half of my heart takes time
Half of my heart has a right mind to tell you that
I can't keep loving you(can't keep loving you)
Oh with half of my heart, with half of my heart

Your faith is strong, but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
You will hate that I never gave more to you
Than half of my heart

But I can't stop loving you(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you(I can't stop loving you)
I can't stop loving you, with half of my heart

Oh half of my heart
Half of my heart
Half of my heart has a real good imagination
Half of my hearts got you

Half of my hearts got a right mind to tell you that
Half of my heart won't do

Half of my heart is a shotgun wedding
To a bride with a paper ring

But half of my heart is the part of a man
Whose never truly loved anything

Half of my heart
Oh half of my heart
Half of my heart
Oh half of my heart

ish.......ish.............

2010-03-09T22:39:00.002+08:00

I hate being taken for granted.
Hence I try my best to not take people for granted
However sometimes without me noticing
I fall into the same routine
and no longer try to make people feel special.
I hate this fact of me.

on a different note

My friend told me the other day that i probably liked her more than she like's herself
I asked myself
How is that possible?
How can someone else like you more than you like your self?
Is it then possible for that person to like someone else?
I read somewhere that you can only love if you first love yourself
does that not apply to liking someone?
Should you not like yourself more than others like you?
After all, no one spends more time with you than yourself
but then again, in someways I did understand how she felt
Perhaps the sole reason we dislike ourselves so much is the fact that we know every thought and every desire we have ever had. We bind it all up into a neat little scrap book and find reasons to dislike ourselves.
You know what, the past is the past and should remain in the past. You are not who you are yesterday. Its who you are tomorrow that matters right?
Anyways to my dear friend that told me this.
I would just like to say, "Don't hold grudges. They are heavy weights that would merely pull you down and drown you further. Live for the future. You are not who you are yesterday. You may be a bitch last time, but that is all in the past,"

P.s. I hate MONDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll be (your crying shoulder) - Edwin McCain

2010-03-09T18:41:00.000+08:00

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be loves suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're My Survival, You're My Living Proof
My love is alive and not dead

Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be loves suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

And I've dropped out, I've burned up, I fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, remembered the things that you said

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be loves suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

I'll Be your cryin' shoulder
I'll Be loves suicide
I'll Be better when I'm older
I'll Be the greatest fan of your life

The greatest fan of your life.

No Air- Glee cast

2010-03-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus:]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

nyeh!

2010-03-04T00:01:00.003+08:00

It's still the same sky that i look at every night.
Is it still the same sky?
it somehow looks different lately,
it looks sad
it looks bored,
i guess i have been spending too much time with my head in the clouds
while my feet are not exactly planted firmly on the ground.
Perhaps I should pop that big head of mine and fall back to the ground.
at least there i know where i am going.
a loss of direction
is probably what i am going through now
Law is fun. Classes aren't
oh well
these are just a bunch of random rants.
I think that's why they always use those two words together
ha.ha.ha.ha.ha
oh well

2010-02-26T03:00:00.001+08:00

Once a girl asked her special one,"Who do you love more, Me or your life?" .. He replied,"Huh??? Of course, my LIFE.!!!" .. Feeling Dejected, the girl decided to leave, but as soon as she would've got away, the boy held her arm, and told her with a tear of love in his eye,"Stupid, Its you, your are My LIFE.!" :') ♥ :D

2010-02-24T00:56:00.001+08:00

HOw come my links disapeared?

Sand

2010-02-23T20:38:00.002+08:00

Apparently I am so lost you can liken it to having to search for a particular grain of sand in the Sahara Dessert
Not knowing what it is I am looking for
I am forced to search and search
hoping with every extra grain of sand I sift through I will
be one grain of sand closer to the one I am looking for
yet I know I will definitely find it
the question is
will time be on my side
as I look through the desert one grain at a time

=D

choices

2010-02-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

Back when I was still in classes, my teachers thought me that in life we always have a choice to make. Never are we without a choice. I didn't really agree with my teachers back then. From my point of view there was no choice to make. It was either I go to camp or i get community service. It was either I go to school or I become dumb. It was either I did my homework or I'll get in trouble.

I always thought I had no choice because the consequence of not carrying out any of these actions are bad.

today however I realise those were choices that I made. No one forced me into it. Just like the choice i made when i was 7. No one ever forced me. I did make a choice. I chose what was best for me. Its just like Newton's law, to every action there is an equal reaction. Therefore to every choice there is an equal end.

I am going to walk away from all the bad choices I'm about to make. I want to make the next few years memorable for me and not a drag of depression. Therefore i will by my own choice walk away because its for my own good

What makes a man - Westlife

2010-02-22T21:33:00.000+08:00

This isn't goodbye, even as I watch you leave, this isn't goodbye
I swear I won't cry, even as tears fill my eyes, I swear I won't cry

Any other girl, I'd let you walk away
Any other girl, I'm sure I'd be ok

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So I can get over you

What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know

So that I can get over you

Other girls will come along, they always do
But what's the point when all I ever want is you, tell me

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know..... (let me know)
Girl you gotta let me know..... (wooo)
So I can get over you

LOVE

2010-02-17T02:22:00.002+08:00

why do you fall in love?
is it because you are lonely?
is it cause you want the company?
why do we need to fall before we realise that we are in love?
the truth is that love in its entirety is random.
it cannot be planned
it cannot be anticipated.
the whole feeling and reaction is comepletely random.

Then again, why do we love?
why do we find the need to classify this emotion as such?
Why does this four inconsequential letters,
L O V E
mean so much to some
and so little to most?

we utter it like it is candy.
I absolutely LOVE this dress
I LOVE that dish
if it is true that we truly love that certain something
would we find it so easy to change our mind
when the dish is fattening
or the dress has faded?
does it mean that because circumstances have changed,
our love changes as well?
Shouldn't we love someone just because they are who they are?
should we not love them for all their merits
should we not love them for all their demerits as well?
why do we find ourselves arguing about fickle matters like who did not say goodnight?

is it not ridiculous when arguments are sometimes about matters so fickle?
My point is,
if I want to love someone,
i want to love her cause she is pretty
i want to love her cause she is a little chubby
i want to love her cause she brightens my day
i want to love her cause sometimes she doesn't have a clue
i want to love her cause she is just so smart
i want to love her cause sometimes she gets confused
i want to love her cause she is loyal
i want to love her cause she is flirtatious

my point is this,
if i love someone i want to love her for everything she is
not what i want her to be
i understand that some changes are a must,
but most isn't

i read somewhere once
"a guy marries a girl hoping she never changes and a girl marries a guy hoping he will change"
perhaps there is some element of truth in
this statement.

Good natural change in people is a good thing.
change done by a persons own will is a good thing
forcing someone to change just cause you don't like it is just plain
DUMB

When you love someone,
their past shouldn't matter
their character shouldn't matter
why should it?
you are in LOVE after all right?
LOVE
should take care of everything
show us the flaws
but remind us that it shouldn't matter anyways.

2010-02-12T21:50:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
you can only live life for real if you find that you can laugh at yourself.
so Thats what ill do.
laugh
laugh
laugh
laugh
laugh

life is just
so pointless
hahahahahah
hahahahahaha
hahahahahaha
hahahahahaha
hahahahahah
hahahahahah
hahahahaha
hahahahaha
hahahahah
hahahaha
hahahah
hahaha
hahah
haha
hah
ha
a

hah
hahaha
hahahaha
hahaha
hah

I feel so silly right now. The world is just not that fair to be perfect all the time
hahahahahaha
great time

Wo Ai De Ren- Chen Xiao Chun

2010-02-06T00:54:00.002+08:00

wo zhi dao gu shi bu hui tai qu zhe
wo zong hui yu jian yi ge shen me ren
pei wo guo mei you le ta de ren sheng
cheng jia li ye zhi lei de deng deng
ta zuo le ta jue de dui de xuan ze
wo zhi hao zhu fu ta zhen de dui le
ai bu dao wo zui xiang yao ai de ren
shei hai neng yao wo zen yang ne
wo ai de ren bu shi wo de ai ren
ta xin li mei yi cun dou shu yu ling yi ge ren
ta zhen xing fu xing fu de zhen can ren
rang wo you ai you hen ta de ai zen me na me shen
wo de ai ren ta yi you le ai ren
cong ta men de yan shen shuo ming liao wo bu ke neng
mei dang ting jian ta huo ta shuo( wo men)
jiu xiang ting jian ai qing yong heng de chao xiao sheng

i dedicate this song to my friend Ang Lee Tat
cause everytime i hear it now
i think of him

lol

2010-02-04T15:51:00.001+08:00

Out in the grand expanse of space, we alone are the planet that is not too far from the sun that we will freeze. Not too near that we would burn and melt. In fact we are just at the right position that we enjoy liquid water and rich oxygen. Such a wonderful miracle that we are alive. Don't you think so?

2010-02-02T01:54:00.001+08:00

i got a new blog. hehehehehehe. its for a little project I'm starting. hahahahaha
http://imaginelifewithoutwords.blogspot.com/

p.s, i don't think you will like it very much Yuva. hahahahahaha

prologue

2010-02-01T23:04:00.004+08:00

He told her, "cause i love you la! that's why I'm standing in the rain. What other reason would i have?" SMACK! "you don't know me enough to say that!" she slammed the front door shut and ran up the stairs. Crying all the way. "Why did he have to tell me that? i can't fall for him. ever." She covered the blanket over her head and tried to go to sleep.

Outside, the rain as if spurred on by K's pity rained heavier still. raindrops that fell on him felt like stones being tossed at him by the laughing gods. laughing at this pathetic excuse for a man. waiting in the rain for a girl that will never love him the way he loved her.

Yet, K stood there, saddened by the fact he was left out in the rain. All by himself. He thought, about how he could be at home now. In the warmth. surrounded by people who loved him, but he realised something. the reason he was there standing in the rain. soaking wet. shivering. hurt.
A million people may surround him but only one person would make him feel like home. Right now, that person was inside that building. He wanted to believe she loved him the way he loved her. He knows however that is something that only exists in his dreams.

2010-01-30T18:27:00.003+08:00

im bored

2010-01-30T01:27:00.001+08:00

Screw it la. i worked so effing hard for it and dint get it. i will sulk as long as i want!

2010-01-29T21:22:00.001+08:00

dont you just hate it when
people start mumbling something to you
then when you ask them what it is
they say
erm nevermind

I HATE YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!

if you want to say something then say everything
dont effing talk halfway then say
oh nevermind

i mean its like what the EFFF!!!

A levels is over

2010-01-25T21:15:00.003+08:00

should i have worked harder? cause i think both my results speak for them selves
i worked my but of for econs and i got a B. i took 3 hours to read my law and i got B.
i dont think there is a proper lesson to be learnt here.
just that the marking for both law and econs are very SUBJECTIVE

either way, i guess its a i can breathe easy considering how i did not fail.

I can't believe it!!

2010-01-24T20:46:00.003+08:00

I had an eating contest today.
it was steak
hahahahaha
i ate like 1.31 kg of meat
i think i'll stay away from beef for a long while
hahaha
oh by the way,
i also won rm400 worth of more premium meat
which considering i wont touch meat for a while
would mean a meaty Chinese new year
hahahahahahaha

GONG XI FA CAI!!!!

2010-01-24T00:12:00.004+08:00

Lets say, one day A falls for B
but B has a boyfriend C.
now C doesn't like A
but the thing is,
B spends more time with A
but B likes C more than she likes A

so what now?

welll......

its quite obvious right

A is now in between B and C

hence
its

hahahaha
hahahaha
ahahahha
ahahahhaha

no but seriously

what is A supposed to do?
hahahah

Lately.....

2010-01-23T23:21:00.002+08:00

Once upon a time,
in a land where wild flowers grow everywhere
unicorns pounce and jump
butterflies flew from flower to flower,
competing with the buzzing bees.

When rabbits jumped and hopped in the fields in relative safety
danger was a concept no one has actually heard of

there lived a little boy.
now his job was to tend to the sheep
there were hundreds of them
fleece white as snow
when they walked by, it looked like snow has just fallen.

Now everyday, at dawn his job was too bring them up the hill to graze.
everyday, at noon he would open the lunch his mum packed for him,
and everyday he would eat his lunch as the sheep had fun on the hill.

One day, he got bored.
So he decided he wanted to try something new.
so at high noon, when the sun was at its highest,
he yelled as loud as he could.
WOLF!
WOLF!
WOLF!

Now danger was new to the towns folk..
they just dint comprehend why he was screaming
so they ran up the hill and asked him why he yelled wolf
He then took out a little saline, rubbed it on his eyes and pretended to cry.
as he cried he lied about how the wolf came and ate one of the sheep.

at first the villagers dint believe him and told him that he should get his eyes checked
and he shouldnt be drinking his fathers beer while tending to the sheep.

the next day
again at high noon
he stood at the highest point of the hill and shouted
WOLF!
WOLF!
WOLF!

again the villagers ran up the hill.
this time he poured red paint over some sheep and then told the villagers that
the wolf came and stole one of the sheep.
with such evidence the villagers had no choice but to believe the little boy.

the next day, before high noon, the villagers set out to murder all the wolves that they can find
one after another got killed
one after another was skinned alive.
all but one survived.

he was the wisest of the wolves. he went to where they stored the skins of all his dead brothers.
he took one of the skins
and he brought it up to the hill where the boy was watching the scenery of blood shed and murder while he was eating his lunch

the wolf sneaked up behind the boy
pushed the apple the boy was eating into the boys mouth
then he put the skin over the boy to make it look like it was a sleeping wolf.

then he howled
he howled a long and loud howl
it was so shrill it broke a few windows.
the villagers hearing the howl
rushed up the hill
so blinded by the bloodlust
the moment the saw the sleeping "wolf"

THEY STABBED IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN REPEATEDLY
TILL YOU COULD NO LONGER SEE THE LITTLE BOY

ALL THAT WAS LEFT WAS INNARDS AND THE APPLE.

2010-01-23T00:40:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!!! ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!

2010-01-21T21:57:00.001+08:00

Things feel really different now.

Why is that
?

2010-01-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

4 more days people. Be nervous. be VERRY nervous.

all the right moves- One Republic

2010-01-14T20:05:00.001+08:00

(Ooooooh yeah)
All the right friends in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
They got all the right moves in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)

Just paint the picture of a perfect place
They got it better than what anyone's told ya
They'll be the king of hearts
And you're the queen of spades
Then we'll fight for you like we were your soldiers
I know we got it good, but they got it made
And the grass is getting greener each day
I know things are looking up
But soon they'll take us down
Before anybody's on our way

They got all the right friends in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
They got all the right moves in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
(yeah, we're going down)
I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
(yeah, we're going down)

Do you think I'm special, do you think I'm nice?
Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?
Between the noise you hear and the sounds you like
Are we just sinking in the ocean of faces
It can't be possible that rain could fall
Only when it's over our heads
The sun is shining every day, but it's far away
Over the world, it said, they got, they got

All the right friends in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
They got all the right moves in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
(yeah, we're going down)
I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
(yeah, we're going down)

It don't matter what you see, I know I could never be
Someone that'll look like you
It don't matter what you say, I know I could never fake
Someone that could sound like you

All the right friends in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
They got all the right moves in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
All the right friends in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
They got all the right moves in all the right places
(so yeah, we're going down)
I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
(yeah, we're going down)
I said everybody knows, everybody knows where we're going
(yeah, we're going down)

(Yeah, we're going down)
(Yeah, we're going down)
All the right moves, yeah
(Yeah, we're going down)
All the right moves, yeah
(Yeah, we're going down)

2010-01-14T00:55:00.001+08:00

BENVOLIO

It was. What sadness lengthens Romeo's hours?

ROMEO

Not having that, which, having, makes them short.

BENVOLIO

In love?

ROMEO

Out--

BENVOLIO

Of love?

ROMEO

Out of her favour, where I am in love.

BENVOLIO

Alas, that love, so gentle in his view,
Should be so tyrannous and rough in proof!

ROMEO

Alas, that love, whose view is muffled still,
Should, without eyes, see pathways to his will!
Where shall we dine? O me! What fray was here?
Yet tell me not, for I have heard it all.
Here's much to do with hate, but more with love.
Why, then, O brawling love! O loving hate!
O any thing, of nothing first create!
O heavy lightness! serious vanity!
Mis-shapen chaos of well-seeming forms!
Feather of lead, bright smoke, cold fire,
sick health!
Still-waking sleep, that is not what it is!
This love feel I, that feel no love in this.
Dost thou not laugh?

i want to fall in love. is that allowed?

2010-01-14T00:34:00.001+08:00

LOL!!!!!! I DINT REALISE YOU CAN PICK UP THE TORTOISE

2010-01-13T02:17:00.001+08:00

2010-01-12T01:34:00.002+08:00

its either you are in cohoots or just incompetent

2010-01-12T01:08:00.002+08:00

Polis Diraja Malaysia.
i have a question for you.
if i am not mistaken,
your job,
the sole reason your institution exists,
is to protect the people and property that belongs to EVERY
MALAYSIAN.
am i right or am i wrong?

how is it
that it is so hard to capture
a couple of arsonists
when it is quite clear
what they are going after.
it is quite clear
what their intentions.
and still
you claim that you have not found the person
responsible for these crimes of hate?

is it, the malaysian police force
with all the resources in their hands
are unable to capture a couple of
trouble makers?

is this incompetence?
or is it that you support their actions?

if it is incompetence then i suggest you take a good hard look
at all the ridiculous remarks and statements you give out to the public.

do not assume we are stupid.
i know even 15 year olds, that have enough sense to understand whats going on
do not try to give an illusion of calm

for we the public are not stupid.
if you are telling me that it is impossible to capture
a group of trouble makers
that are as trivial as the ones causing the problems
then why do we need you?

how is it that you can ask the churches to beef up their security?
isn't that your job?
or is it because you do not want to do it?

because from my point of view,
churches, like temples, like mosques
are places of holy worship.
its a place where people go to,
to find peace,
serenity.
to be one with their gods
or to communicate with their gods.

it is not a shopping mall where people store goods
nor is it a bank where people store their money.

it is a place, that in many cases is poorer than all the other institutions.
it is not meant to be daunting
it is not meant to intimidate
it is meant to be open for people.
to come in and worship and pray.

so what kind of security do you expect them to have?
arent the police supposed to protect us?
if all we need are security guards then i should hope
that the police force be disbanded and the money distributed to the poor.

furthermore, are we supposed to depend on the sole called security guards
who can barely communicate with us
who can barely stay up long enough to even open a gate
to protect from angry arsonists?
i say we are lucky they dont help the arsonists set fire to the buildings

so

again i ask

what is the point of having the

POLIS DIRAJA MALAYSIA

if we are still being threatened by low life thugs?

i just don't get you people

SEriOuslY!!!???

2010-01-08T22:29:00.002+08:00

When our new prime minister took his oath.
i thought to myself this is the dawn of a new era
things are going to change.
looking at his past, i thought it was for the better.

for awhile, i thought i was right.
the economy was recovering
things became cheaper

life was more peaceful,
even with the opposition making mountains out of mole hills.
i thought to myself,
perhaps losing the two thirds majority
to a simple majority was a good thing
now the government would have to work much harder
to prove to us that they are worthy of taking charge of this country.

to some extent i suppose,
even corruption seemed to slow down within the government.
god knows, even the strictest and most honest governments would have this disease.
so less corruption was a very good improvement.

however, just as it seems that our country took a step forward,
we took two steps back.
perhaps more than just two.

the 1Malaysia concept.
i had my doubts about it
but since the government was trying really hard to push it
i thought to myself
hey, why not?

so i told myself i would try my best to embrace the idea.
mind you, i was never one to judge my friends based on colour,
i've always picked friends just cause they are better than i am.

so to me it wasn't too hard.
saying Hi to everyone wasn't a chore, but a blessing.

the recent liberalisation of the economy sector
was to me
a breath of relief.
this means that it is now an equal playing field,
where i can compete fairly among my peers.
not because i'm chinese, or he is malay or she is indian

but because we are all striving to be the best
in the dog eat dog economy out there.

then the events that conspired last night really ticked me off
is that one word really worth causing the whole country to shake?
mind you, the court has not even ruled anything yet
is that one word really your god, or is he something so much more?

are we really so shallow as to argue over the use of one word?
is it really worth putting all the children in this country at risk?
is it worth risking damage. real physical damage to people.
living breathing human beings?

i believe that Malaysia is a democratic country.
I believe that in our constitution, it is stated that Islam is our national religion.
i do not challenge this fact.
but
I believe that Malaysia is a free country.
I believe it is written in the constitution that we are all free to practice our own religion
as long as it doesn't intefere with another religion.

hence, based on one court ruling which was stayed
based on ONE word that is being tried
we are going to destroy
all that OUR forefather worked for?
a truly 1MALAYSIA
where everybody, EVERYBODY can live together in harmony?

i've been drilled in my high school
that we should all practice Nilai's thought in our Moral classes
Bertolak Ansur
was one of them.
this means that we should give and take each others weaknesses
and work together to become something great.
compromise, and giving in is two different concepts
that i think our leaders really have to think about.

I may be a young person, but i think i speak for a vast majority
of Malaysians when i say
I don't want blood on the streets.
i don't want to hear explosions that have nothing to do with fireworks
I don't want to have to think about my safety everytime i step out of my home

perhaps i am inconsequential,
and small
but i believe
that i want brighter days ahead for my children

i want to be able to be myself.
and have my own beliefs.

but that is all.

P.s: Don't act like a little child and throw a tantrum every time things don't go your way.
GROW UP!

more than words- extreme

2010-01-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

INTRO:

G... Cadd9... Am7... C... C.D. G...

VERSE:

    G          Cadd9
     Saying I love you is
  
     Am7             C       D         G
     not the words I want to hear from you

    G                Cadd9
     It's not that I want you

     Am7            C      D    Em
     not to say but if you only knew

     Bm7   Am7
     Ho-ow ea-sy

     D              G      D/F#     Em
     It would be to show me how you feel

     Bm7       Am7       D7              G7
     More than words  is all you have to do

     G7              C
     To make it real

     C         Cm              G
     Then you wouldn't have to say

               Em7
     That you love me 'cos

     Am7     D7     G
     I'd  already know

BRIDGE:

    G                 D/F#   Em        Bm      C
     What would you do if my heart was torn in two

    C                    G/B     Am7             D7                G
     More than words to show you feel that your love for me is real

   G                   D/F#  Em7        Bm7    C
     What would you say if I took those words away?

    C                     G/B      Am7
     Then you couldn't make things new

             D7             G
     Just by saying I love you

(Repeat intro x2)


VERSE 2


     Now that I've tried to
     Talk to you and make you understand
     All that you have to do is
     Close your eyes and just reach out your hands
     And touch me
     Hold me close don't ever let me go
     More than words
     Is all I ever needed you to show
     Then you wouldn't have to say
     That you love me
     Cos I'd   All Ready Know

REPEAT BRIDGE AD LIB AND FADE

2010-01-07T18:42:00.001+08:00

painting all the pieces is harder than i thought it would be.
DAMN!!!
my head is spinning

WHEN I DIE I DON'T WANT A WAKE. =D

2010-01-04T21:29:00.001+08:00

its pain to know that you are the last thing on my mind- anonymous

2009-12-31T01:08:00.001+08:00

waiting all my life- rascall flatts

2009-12-28T01:58:00.000+08:00

Waiting All My Life Lyrics

(Tommy lee James/Rob Mathes)

Everybody needs it
Everybody wants it
Everybody’s searching for someone
Been down a thousand highways
I never thought would end
Baby, I’ve been

Waiting all my life to find you
Always been one step behind you
Your love babe
I’ve been waiting all my life

I was tired of waiting
Every night was praying
Everyday would be the day I’d find you
I grew so impatient, how long would it take
To know you were out there somewhere
Somewhere waiting, wondering just like me

I’ve been waiting all my life to love you
All that time I was dreaming of you
Your love babe
I’ve been waiting all my life

And did I lose faith, did I lose heart
Maybe I did, but I never lost my way
To where you are - I’ve been

Waiting all my life to find you
Always been one step behind you
Your love babe
I’ve been waiting all my life

I’ve been waiting all my life to love you
All that time I was dreaming of you
Your love babe
I’ve been waiting

Your love I’ve been waiting
Your love I’ve been waiting all my life

All my life, all my life

She's gone- Super junior

2009-12-26T02:04:00.002+08:00

on behalf of my friend Kexin who forgot what the song was about

When did you start becoming weary of me
What burdens did I give you
To you, no longer say anything
I’ve become unable to ask now
Without the usual grumbling
Still smiling that polite smile
Losing the sadness that passed by your eyes
I’m sorry, it was absentminded stupidity on my part
my love
When I see you with your back turned to me
The time love clearly took
Now I can see it too
Like a time of separation
I saw it coming
I didn’t know you were such a part of me
If I could turn it all back
No, if you would smile for me just once more
By myself, I’m unable to hold your heart
Because of foolish pride, I’m sorry
my love
When I look at how cold you’ve become
The separation spreading in this instance
Now I know there’s nothing to be done
In the name of love
Slowly like changing colors
Love is leaving me
I didn’t know I had it to begin with
Even words of apology
Although I’m as sorry as this
What could a person like me
Say and how could I say it
Like I can’t breathe, I’m dizzy
Inside lost time
Even if I roam quickly
The only thing I could do now
Is that I can’t do anything
When I see you with your back turned to me
The time love clearly took
Now I can see it too
Like a time of separation
I saw it coming
I didn’t know you were such a part of me

credits to
http://cherry-blossom-heaven.blogspot.com/2008/01/super-junior-shes-gone_4170.html

TO ALL MY FRIENDS, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-25T02:44:00.002+08:00

2009-12-24T01:01:00.001+08:00

A dragon looks down,
from that high cloud of his,
and realises whats wrong.

before this his air was clean and fresh
now it was stuffy and felt dead

before this he could pull clouds and eat them like candy
for they were made of the freshest water in the world
now they tasted sour
and he noticed their colour was weird too.

such was the devastation this young race have come up with,
how many more decade will they last?

2009-12-22T21:22:00.002+08:00

the sky was a dull blue today.
so was my heart
because of one stupid mistake
i lost my best partner for the next coming month if i'm lucky.
Guys, next time when you go out
cherish every moment with your best friends
it might be your last

=((

how i met all my BAC friends. - challenge from jake

2009-12-18T00:55:00.006+08:00

well...... im going to tell you a story. a wonderful story on how i met these crazy friends of mine.

as they say, friends who always praise you are useless and friends that only go against you are asses. hence thank God i met good friends like these

ill start from the first few people i met

Jo Ann: i met her in economics class. it was the first college class i went to and i was sooooooo nervous. then i met her and everything was nice and easy from there. however the class we met in, the first economic class we were in has dissapeared. oh well, what to do?

See Wei: i met her in Mr. Kevin's law class. our first meeting was a little awkward, how that has changed over time. hahahahahaha

Kimberley: i met her in Mr Mohan's Malaysian studies class. she was late and boy did she look blur when she came in. she sat right behind me and since she looked a little lost i decided to turn around and say Hi. hahahaha looking back now who knew we could become good friends.... totally random.

Lee Tat: Another one with regards to the Queen of randomness, i was having lunch with Jo Ann and See Wei when all of a sudden, Kimberley came and said "HI, this is my friend. his name is Tat." i guess it was chemistry or just randomness, but me and him ended up having breakfast together. hahahaha too bad we dont do it anymore. but we are young and perhaps someday we will have an Ang and Tan and associates
hahahaha

Raphael, Junior, Jake: met this triplet at ms sunbeams English classes. Boy those were the rondomest sessions ever. we talked about............... Gosh! i honestly can't remember. hahahaha
life was good, and it will only get better. these are brothers. hahahahaha

lets seee
hmmmmm

express route was interesting

it was in those classes where i got to meet people like May Jean, Thomas, Andrew, Geraldine, Winnie, Siew Yee, Kexin, Nick, Derek, Ashley, Hanna hmmmmmmmm well i cant possibly list down the whole express route right
?

hahahaha
anyways it was in those classes that i got closer to people like Thomas and Andrew and Geraldine and more. you know me right? hahahahahaha

furthermore, with geraldine came Michele. the first time i met her was in Mr Aria's second econs class........ but i dont remember when we started talking
hahahahaha

some people i starte talking to on the internet and got to know them better

like for example

Kexin, never talked much to her in class, but recently found out we both like manga and anime and making fun of lalas, and pretty much do random talking about random stuff, but thats what makes the world so random and random is fun and cool right? so i say lets be random for a bit longer before random turns into stupid and we turn into actual grown ups. Btw i'm still waiting to see your story and see your cosplay. :)
hahahaha.......
perhaps we can start and form a club too....

there is also Jolynn..... where our friendship started on the train that faithful day, and slowly became a good one. hahahahaha! have you sat on your long train yet?

then there are too many numerous others like chew theng and lai yee, whom i dont really remember how we met but i'm so glad ive met you people.

then there is Su Ning and Jessica whom i recently got to know. Really funny and cute("Su Ning is soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute!" as quoted from Kimberley)
Porridge. HAHAHAHAHA

sorry jake, guess my memory isnt that good after all :(

TO Kimberly who marks our economics papers. thanks for all your wonderful remarks and helpful hints. i mean it. really. at first she was such an enigma. but she is so nice once you get to know her. sorry i din't mention you earlier. i was looking for a good picture of you. hehehehe

woo hoo

2009-12-15T17:07:00.000+08:00

This is my first post from my phone........... Woo hoo showing off muahahahaha

MAN WORKING AT THE FAIR ROCKS

2009-12-13T23:27:00.003+08:00

I tell you ar
you know ar
woeki at da adu fair
iz so fun

get belanja teppanyaki and also sakae

haha
i lob dis job

besides that
i also got a new phone
hehehehehehe

express music 5530
hahahahahhaha

WOOT !!!!!!!!!!!!

Best week eVER

it was way back when horses still had jobs

2009-12-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

"Once upon a time
in the old, old west
there lived a cowboy.

This cowboy was no ordinary cowboy
for he knew something everyone else did not

this cowboy had the power of knowledge
for he has lived ever since
man still hid in caves.

he lived at a time where a man's best friend
was no random mutt
but a sharp stone and a good pair of legs

such was the hardships he had to endure to live as long as he has,"

you see, this cowboy was no ordinary cowboy.
he is special.
he is old

and he lives in a place called tanjung rambutan
where nurses feed him medication on a daily basis so he doesn't go around disturbing the other
mental patients around him
with stories of sticks and stones

but then again
he is really old

and the stories he tells seems too real to believe

perhaps there is more to this old cowboy than meets the

eye

=)

This dance - Five for Fighting

2009-12-11T11:53:00.001+08:00

This is not our favorite song
but the night is moving right along
may I have your hand, may I have this dance.

I sense that you are amused,
but you just bought those brand new shoes.
It would such a shame not to give us the chance.

And oh my love there is only so
many dances we can take across
the night.

So while is just me and you
I thought I might say to you
You put the beautiful in life.

I know at times that you feel alone
when I'm here and I'm never home.
You said before is the price that you pay.

On matters of clarity
is not secret you are carrying me.
But you disguise thoughts of fall
I will keep you safe.

And oh my love there is only so
many dances we can take across
the night.

So while is just me and you
I thought I might say to you
You put the beautiful in life.

And oh....
oh...oh...

This is not our favorite song
but I wish it go on and on
it's moments like these
singers do all they can to stop time.

So let me just say to you
before the DJ changes the tune
you put the beautiful in life
you put the beautiful in life.

colour quiz!!!!!!!!!

2009-12-10T23:00:00.001+08:00

marcus took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

""Wishes to live in a calm, peaceful, relaxing envi..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

the end??? really??

2009-12-09T23:40:00.002+08:00

I always find that I'm waiting for someone
why is it I who always has to do the waiting?

i think as one of my new year resolutions
i shall not wait for things to happen anymore
i shall not wait for people to decide things

life is short
and if the stories about the end of the world is true

then it probably means i dont have much time

i never liked it when the pastor or any other person talked about the end of the world

not really because I'm afraid of death.

but its because i'll regret all the things i have not done because i have waited

waited for school to be over
waited to fall in love
wait, wait, wait

yeah

i hate the end
not cause I'll be no more
it would be cause i would have wasted my life doing nothing i really wanted
because i keep holding myself back

live like its your last
never sounded so good

but alas, this kind of thinking is what gets people killed in freak accidents

so ill try to change my life a bit at a time
live like its your last week i suppose
hahahaha
hahahah
more room to plan ahead now

hahahaha

2009-12-08T02:42:00.002+08:00

why is it that whenever i walk into the exam hall all my knowledge leaves me
and i am but an empty husk
and the moment i walk out of that hall
everything rushes back in and gives me a freakin headache
?????
what the hell la

people and things always leave me when i need them most

!@#$%^&*()

screw it la~!

wrapped up in you- Garth Brooks

2009-12-08T02:34:00.001+08:00

How do I love you
Well let me see
I love you like a lyric loves a melody
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

How do I need you
Can't you tell
I need you like a penny
Needs a wishing well
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

Every now and then
When the world
That were living in is crazy
You gladly hold me and carry me through
No one in the world has ever done
What you did for me
And I'd be sad and lonely
If there were no you

Well how do I love you
Let me count the ways
There ain't no number high enough
To end this phrase
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

Every now and then
When the world
That were living in is crazy
You gladly hold me and carry me through
No one in the world has ever done
What you did for me
And I'd be sad and lonely
If there were no you

How do I love you
Well don't you know
I love you bout as deep
As any love can grow
Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you

Baby, completely
Wrapped up in you