Control

I love control.
I like being able to determine the path to take
when I want the car to turn left, it does just as I wish.
I really do enjoy that feeling.

but alas, not everything can be controlled,
the weather for instance.
too many different variables to make it into something we can control
there is the humidity, the static, the temperature, the wind
in fact, even the phases of the moon is taken into account
even still, these are but a small portion of the variables that control the weather

the best we come up with is the ability to predict the weather.
this puts some control back into our hand,
but that's what they want you to think.

predicting the weather allows you to plan around the weather
you don't plan for it to happen,
and lets be honest, we are not very good at predicting the weather either.

what I'm trying to say is,
I love being able to control something.
but i don't want to control everything.
somehow that ability would just take all the fun and spontaneity out of life.

that's why I never believed in preparing the umbrella before the rain,
I do have a thing against standing under the umbrella
but
that's not the issue here.
if its just a soft drizzle then i find the umbrella stupid.
if its pouring cats and dogs, the umbrella is not going to help much.

similarly in life,
if the problem is small, just persevere through it.
if the problem is huge,
well lets get wet.
why not?
didn't we all use to love playing under the rain last time.
we just grow stronger every time after the rain is done.

so love
be happy
splurge
me a control freak,
i don't believe in planning for the future.
i just believe in knowing what i want to do in the future.
that's my direction.

i do not want to plan my path there
that would be quite confusing and lets face it
i can't predict the future